God of peace.

Acquiring all the riches in this world does not guaranttee peace.
Yielding to the Will of God brings inner peace that radiates outward...

Seek peace in the will of God.

Bible Passage for the day.

My Bible Passage for the day..

Matthew 11:28-30 KJV

Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

Amen..
With Jesus I am More than a conqueror, without Jesus I am an empty vessel...
He is my source of survival Amen...

Heaven Knows.

Worker in God's Vineyard.
Instead of fulfilling your duty as an instrument in the hand of It's maker, you are busy doing busy body in the church.

Hmm! The latest NEWS from family A-Z is vivid to you.
From the food they eat to the bed spread on their bed, where they do their clothe shopping, their account Balance none is unknown to you.

When you collect offering you broadcast who contributes most or least.
When you sing "everything na double double" you wink at other people's wife or husband.

Hmm! You are a sanctuary worker but you steal the cleaning products.
You are in the media but you are busy focusing the camera on the sister's boobs heheheh..
God is watching you.

You are a Minister/Pastor/Pastor's wife but you spread confidential NEWS of member.
You use the Holyspirit to request Money and material from Members.
God sees and know all.

You are not a worker but you condemn all workers, the usher is too hospitable, the Choirs are too posh or they are not. The pastor is too holy for your liking. Hmmmmm!!!!

Heaven knows who is serving and worshiping in truth and in spirit o...

Live for God.

As a Believer, a Christian to be precise.
You should always long for for that Heavenly home.
The only way you can do so is by Living for Jesus.
Make a decision not to turn back.
Ask God for grace to carry on.
Don't allow this "microwave age" to get you confused of who God is.

A saying goes thus;
"I will live my life  with the hope that their is a God then die and realize there is not rather than live my life like God doesn't exist then die only to find out that He exist".

Live for God.....

I've got Potentials 4

A small ceremony was conducted in the church.

Dad later told me  that he could not remarry because he loved mum. That was why he stayed single. He said he was sure it all happened to glorify God. Also for God to bring the best out of the whole situation.

Mum has really changed to the glory of God. She is now part of the marriage counsellors in church. She uses her life to teach others. Many lives get impacted through her testimony.

We are now a big and happy family.

Two years after that dad walked me down the Aisle. I got married to my soul mate Anthony Bello. Imagine me, once rejected, now reformed and honoured. My sisters were so happy they organised the party. Selma and Tanya now live in Australia but they came for my wedding.

Tanya is married with two children and Selma is married with a child.
Exactly eleven months after my wedding, I put to bed twin boys. Dad was so happy, so was mum and my sisters. Anthony and his family were over joyed. He was the only son, His parents were glad  he had twin boys. Anthony's family are very nice God fearing Christian family.

Pelola now works with a media firm and she is an editor of a News Paper firm. Pinleola now owns a clothing line called Modesty. Mum is very happy now so is dad. Less I forget dad's condition with fertility has changed for the best. God restores the rejected.

Grandma is now a great grandma she visits me often. She spends her time volunteering in church and local community centre. She help with Children reading to them.

I still do my painting,poems and my medical research. My husband is a solicitor by profession but a gospel singer by passion and gift. So I write his lyrics for self composed songs.

Who would have thought I will come this far?
God smiled on me and set me free.

Through my disability then He brought out My Ability...

I've got Potentials 3

Just as I hoped, Selma saved the day  by showing up. I introduced them to each other. Pelola said she was a media and Journalism Student. She was born in Canada but moved to U.K. 3years ago. She wanted to be friends with me,she gave me her mobile number and requested for mine but I gave an excuse that my mobile was bad at the time so I gave her Selma's number instead. She told us she had a twin sister called Pinleola Gideon who is a student of thesame University as I was and she was studying  Clothing and Textile. I just nodded and wished she left but Selma got into conversation with her for the next 30minutes then she left. Though she apologised for disturbance which we said it was ok.

Selma said she liked her,she suggested she could be of help to us by publicising my work for the next students skills and talent day coming up in the community centre.I promised to think about it but seriously,I just wanted to stay clear off Gloria(my mum and her family).

My final exams came it was a busy time for me by then I was walking on my own.I came out in flying colours in my exams glory to God.
Selma and Tanya had put my name down for the Student skills and Talent show at the community centre before they told me. I was not interested in it because the auctioning was doing well. I have done some new artworks and also written a poetry book. I was waiting for the launching of the book.

I felt so reluctant to go for the Students skill and Talent day but Dad and Grandma encouraged me. Although Grandma kept pestering me to discuss my worries but I did not know where to start or what to say. So I put on a brave face, Grandma followed me to the Student's Skills and Talent day. Dad could not because he was working away from home that weekend.

The Skills and Talent day was eventful and successful. I came home with two awards. Selma and Tanya followed me home later. Grandma invited Pelola and Pinleola to dinner that evening. When she heard that they helped to put my work and my name up for nomination she felt obliged to show appreciation.
At dinner everything went peaceful we all enjoyed. Grandma requested that the Twins invited their friends and family to my book launching which was the following week although I hesitated at first but Pelola said their mum liked my works that she had shown her and their mum will love to meet me. I wonder why!

I could not hold my thoughts to myself anymore. I told grandma that I saw my mum and who the twins were. She did not seem surprised about me seeing my mum because apparently she saw her one day at the shopping centre when she went shopping but Mum did not see her. She told me that my life can be related to the Bible verse that says in Acts 4:11 (KJV)"This is the stone which was set at nought of you builders, which is become the head of the corner".
You are the Cornerstone Precious, you will always be the head in Jesus name amen. You need to let go of your hurts towards your mother remember God has been Good to you so don't hold any resentment towards your mother.

That night in bed I was restless, the hurt of what my mum did to Dad and I came back fresh to my memories. I cried that night and I just wanted God to help me because I could not handle it as human.

My dream...
I saw myself with my tutor from University Professor Borough, we were walking down a road together the road at first had hills but he helped me when I was tired. He held my hands till we got to a smooth road where we walked side by side and My tiredness was fading away. He showed me some of my works which he said I was doing well. He insisted I had to press on to the next level when I decided to sit with what I have. As we approached a gate labelled with next level he went in as he always do but as I was approaching a force pulled me back saying I need to empty the dirty bags I have been carrying all along. I refused to do it because I said the dirts were part of me and letting go is not easy. He said if I don't the forces wont stop pulling me back from entering the next level gate which was God's plan for me. I was adamant in the dream gradually I got pulled back to the begining. That was when I decided to drop the dirt  after which I covered the journey and went through the next level gate but it seem like eternity unlike when I started the journey with my Tutor. At the enterance of th gate this Scriptures were written bold.
Ephesians 4:26-27 KJV"Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil".  1 Peter 3:9 KJV "Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing: but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing".
This was when I woke up. I told grandma my dream. Which she said God requested that I forgive my mother and let God have his way in me.

My book Launch.....
Dad invited his colleagues from work, church members came,grandma's friends came. My friends and course mates were present. It was successful, the twins(Pelola and Pinleola) came with their mum.
when the time came  for the twins to introduce their Parents to me dad was busy attending to some people but grandma was with me. Gloria(my mum) by now knew who I was but she could not excuse herself from the programme.

When the twins introduced their mum, mum's eyes was filled with tears as she said "Congratulations  Precious you are indeed a bunch of talent" That was when Dad joined us. He was so surprised but composed. He said Hello Gloria thanks for coming.  The twins were confused but happy. They asked dad if he knew their mum and My dad said very well.  My mum felt so ashamed till they left.

When we got home dad asked me how Mum got there which I told him. He wept for joy saying Precious she gave up on you but I never did. I knew you are precious as your name implies. Daughter as a man I struggled to keep my emotions. I pray in my secret and God answered me openly. Your achievement is an evidence that God is at work. As he was going to his room, He turn to look at me and said "You must forgive her".

It's been three weeks since my book launch and A week since I graduated from University. I was busy in the study/studio that dad turned our conservatory to for me. My phone rang but I forgot to check the caller I.D.  It was Pelola on the line. She was remorseful I wonder why. I asked if all was well and she said they lost their dad just two days ago. He passed on in his sleep. I would have known if my friends were around but they were on holiday. I felt so sorry and said comforting words to her. Also I asked how Pinleola was and their mum.

I was surprised when she said you mean our Mum but I did not say anything. She told me how their mum had been depressed for sometime now. How she opened up to them just yesterday the cause of her depression and how she wants me to forgive her for what she did. Also if I can still "accept" her as "my mother". What a life!

Two days after my conversation with Pelola a meeting was scheduled for us all and the meeting point was at my dad's house.

Mum's Plea.....
She said she was guilty of all that happened. She never thought I could walk again or things could get better for dad. She only saw the present and concluded on it. She never thought of the future. The day she saw me at my book Launch walking, she felt like the ground should swallow her. She was very appologetic and remorseful. 
Myself and Dad did not say anything but grandma did all the talking. She said Gloria, you were still in Yaba College of Technology when you met my son. He financed you till you graduated. You moved into his house even before you married him because he was well to do. All warnings that you were a gold digger fell on his deaf hears. When you left Precious and my son I was not surprised because I knew you were not the type that stick to marriage vow "For better for worse".Who are we to judge you,thank God the rejected family is now the Family with Potentials. You are forgiven.

Mum insisted I and dad say we forgive her which we did she was surprised. I also told her to make her way straight with God. Also that she should accept Christ as her Lord and savior and she did. She said she was moving back to Canada with the twins. She requested that the twins stay in our care anytime they resume back to University which we agreed.

Its been two years now since the reunion with mum. She calls often to check on me and say hello to grandma and Dad. One day grandma asked me how I will feel if my dad and mum re-married. I was speechless, though I will not be against it but will dad agree. When he got back fron work he asked me thesame question. I told him if it pleases him afterall am an adult. Deep down inside of me I was happy but what will the twins do?

Six months later after the twin's graduation ceremony. At the after party in the house. Although it was just our family,Dad proposed to mum and she said yes. The twins gave their consent.

Praise with all you have

I'm often outside very early in Morning.

This Morning as I was walking up the road.
There was this strong but pleasant smell.
Also there were all types of distinctive sounds coming from the birds on the tree.
It felt like the Birds were passing some message across to a Greater Being.
The smell was coming from the flowers on the tree.

At that point something dropped into my mind.
What are these creatures doing?
Giving praise to their maker I suppose.

I know some people will not agree with me, they will back it up with scientific theories.

But I believe what I believe.

Psalm 19:1-4 KJV
The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament sheweth his handywork.
Day unto day uttereth speech, and night unto night sheweth knowledge.
There is no speech nor language, where their voice is not heard. Their line is gone out through all the earth, and their words to the end of the world. In them hath he set a tabernacle for the sun.

Hmm! The word of God has answers to my belief.

This day friends, I urge you to praise God with all you have.
Seriously some people don't sing all week till sunday in Church.
They are too posh to do so please pardon my Ignorance.

If creatures lesser than man can praise The Creator, How much more you His Image..

I praise you Gbin gbiniki.
I Praise you ato ba jaiye.
Praise him in diverse tongues..
Halleluyah

No mountain is too High for God to Level.

This week just to encourage us all that No One is Greater than God. Not in Heaven or on Earth. Whatever Challenges we face always believe that God is Above all. He will see you through. So I pray that this week all mountains in our lives will become leveled ground in Jesus name. Amen

Act when God speaks.

When God speaks and we doubt we give chances to devil to speak negativity into the situation or speak us out of God's plan. When God speaks and we act we are doing what Faith entails.

Believe

The More you know about God the more you will trust in Him and His doing.
Your Faith involves doing something and the Trust you have in God will empower your Faith.
Even when your Chances of breaking through is thin, your Faith in God carries you to the Next Level.
By following what you believe you put it into action.
Have Faith in God!

Prayer for the week

My prayer this week; you & I will not be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Destroyers of testimony will not know us or destroy our testimonies in Jesus name amen. I pray that the will of God will always be our will and his way our way. Every covenant of termination before fulfillment will not be our portion. We destroy it with the blood of Jesus amen. This week We step into fullness of joy and God's Divine Visitation in Jesus name. Amen

Man Power is limited

Anytime you feel like doing more but cannot because you have used up your man power. Remember you are only human and your power  can be limited.
Remember God is Unlimited.

So don't throw in the Towel Believe In the Unlimited God Always.

I've got Potentials 2

Grandma came in whilst we were talking and she said she heard our discussions. With her were some drawings I drew as a child which I sent to her. She had them neatly framed. I was surprised because I could not even remember. She read one of the  poems that had someone sitting and looking up to the sky with a speach box that says
"my dream is not just about what I see when I sleep. My dream is what is inside of me deep down, it can not be stolen from me because it's uniquely mine. I will pursue my dream so it won't just be a dream but reality".

I love my grandma she is a great woman. My role model, how I wish she was my real mum.
Selma is a very emotional lady, she well up in tears even when a little child cries. Her dad owns an Auction company so she promised to show some of my works to her dad.

It was during summer break that year, I had just gone for a routine check on my legs, even though my mobility was limited but my limbs were not thin.The consultant I saw said there are still chances of me walking again. I thought he was joking. I told him I have been on the wheelchair close to a decade but he insisted that by putting metal plates in some part of my Knee and ankle coupled with professional Physiotherapy I will walk again.  This News came as a shock back home the doctor said I will never walk again If the required operation was not carried out. Due to lack of funds Dad couldn't meet up with the bills and deadline given. Here I am now in front of another surgeon, he is the best in town, he says I still have chances to walk again is it a joke?

When we got home that night, I and grandma prayed. When dad got back we told him, he was joyous. He said "I knew God would not leave or forsake me and my family. I held on to him even when my hands felt slippery and his words for me always is in Psalm 34:8-10 NIV "Taste and see that the Lord  is good;blessed is the one who takes refuge in him. Fear the Lord , you his holy people,
for those who fear him lack nothing. The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the Lord  lack no good thing". At last God is showing me that my waiting time were not just wasted time.

At this point I thought dad was becoming sentimental, I shouted dad stop it! It's just a way to raise my hope how are we sure it will work. Dad just smiled and said Precious Iyanuoluwa Badmus the daughter of Theophilus Jenrola Badmus. This wont just be a raising of hope it will work to favour you in Jesus name. Grandma shouted amen.

The next day Selma was the one that woke us up it was a saturday and dad was off work. When grandma opened the door Selma quickly greeted her beaming with joy,she said her dad had agreed to put up some of my work for auction.Even though it was the least on my mind I felt like a page was opened in the book of rememberance before God and all he could see or do was to bless me with overflowing blessings. Who am I God that you are mindful of me? I spoke to Selma's dad on the phone and we scheduled a time for appointment.

Later that day Tanya called to say her dad wanted to buy some of my artworks minimum of a £1000 for each. I felt joy inside of me and for the first time over a decade something miraclous happened to my toes..

I felt movement in my toes, I screamed for grandma to come and again my toes moved. Grandma just started rolling on the floor, she kept saying, unbeatable, unquestionable, reliable, deliverer, counsellor she was praising God both in English and our mother tongue. I got my phone to call dad because he left for the gym not too long ago but he did not pick his phone. I called about 3times but it kept going to voice mail. I left a message for him to call me as soon as possible that it was urgent. Grandma called him as well but he did not pick his phone still. I became restless but my faith stood firm that he was alright.

At around 8:00pm Dad arrived,he said he left his phone upstairs in his room. He said he met an old colleague at the shopping mall where he went shopping. He said the friend insisted he visit his family because he lives on the street leading to the town centre but he forgot to call thinking his phone was in his gym bag. He only realised he left his phone when his friend requested to speak to me on the phone. I was a bit upset but happy that he was ok. Grandma told dad what happened to my toes and he could not believe it until he saw them moving. Dad got his camcorder to record my miraclous toes movement.

A week  later a letter came through the post from the consultant. It said that the recent scan showed that my chances of walking again was 88.9% so I will need to come for surgery the next wednesday which is the nearest available date.

My Dream come true..
After about 15hours of Surgery, I lay on the hospital bed waiting for a dream that will either keep me going or be a plus to the hand of God I had been expetiencing for the past two months. Dad was there as usual and so was grandma. The Surgeon came in looking at  us, without wasting our time he said CONGRATULATIONS PRECIOUS THE OPERATION WAS SUCCESSFUL. YOU JUST NEED TO HEAL UP AND START PHSIOTHERAPY SO YOUR LEGS BECOME AS GOOD AS POSSIBLE. Halleluyah was all I could say going into the Theathre that day I dread every doubt that came to my mind. I asked God to take over the hands of the surgeon and all the medical staff. My God is abundantly able.

My physio sessions was not as easy as I thought but I put my all into it. I was determined to walk again. One day whilst I was at the physo session with my friends Tanya and Selma. I now  see these two girls(Tanya&Selma) as my sisters and family now. Even though we differ in race we understand each other so well. A man came in, he looked so old and depressed, he was a one leg amputtee. I kept looking at him and when his children came in, I thought they were just sisters but the resemblance kept reminding me of my Mother I don't know why.

Then My Mum came in, hmm! how time flies the last time I saw her I was just approaching age 11. She looked more beautiful I must commend but I was not in the mood to introduce myself or to give away any clue of recognition. My Physiotherapist came in on time thank goodness! She said I was doing well with my legs so I can do away with the zimmer Frames now but I still need to Use the Crutches.She was busy with her children and husband I suppose. I said thank you to the Physiotherapist and left. Even though I was using Crutches to walk, Tanya and Selma saw that My footsteps were fast.

Selma wanted to know why I was in a hurry.I just gave excuse that I wanted to get home early and rest. They both laughed at me and asked if I was going to run home on Crutches which we all laughed.The journey home felt too far,I pretended to have dosed off so I wont have to explain anything to them. Tanya was saying to Selma since they thought I was sleeping, She said "the Lady that came in with the two girls was staring at Precious". She said she wanted to ask why the stare and to tell her staring was rude but since I was in a haste she thought it was not necessary.

I tried my best for the two weeks  before school resumption not to tell dad or grandma. We all thought she lived in Canada, how come she was in U.K.

My thoughts...
How can I bring myself to forgive this woman, so those girls were the pregnancy she had when she left? Why was she staring at me,did she recognize me or was it my voice? I will make sure I change my physiotherapy session to another place so I wouldn't come across her ever again. This is a woman who did not just leave me, her family never bothered to check on me. Even when dad was in need of help before grandma came,they refused to help even when he contacted them. Can I ever relate to her like a daughter to her mother.. Hmmmm! I doubt it.

I was deep in my thought not knowing grandma was by my side until she tapped my shoulder. Grandma said she noticed that I have been in thoughts for some days to the extent that I lose awareness of my surrounding. She wanted to know what the problem was but I did not say anything.

Grandma said...
Are you thinking of Gloria, I pretended not to understand what she meant. I said which Gloria and she said your mother. I said why should I? Grandma said I should be free to tell her my worries but I insisted there was none.

Back to my final year of studies, I had a lot to do so I decided to put my Artwork auctioning to the 3rd saturdays. I am gaining more confidence day by day in my mobility.

One day in the library whilst studying a young lady who's face looks familiar said hello while she sat on a chair close to mine. Tanya was writting exams while Selma went to get lunch for us. I said hello and looked at her, I recognised her immediately. She introduced herself as Pelola Gideon while I introduced myself as Precious omitting my surname on purpose.She said she had seen some of my artwork at the auction and my poems. I just thanked her hoping that Selma will arrive on time.....

I've got potentials 1

No one knew what it felt like to   have  potentials locked into a body screaming for liberty.
Except you were in my shoes you can hardly understand what it felt like.

I was born very able, all my limbs working right. In the midst of odds I survived. I stopped breathing at birth for 20minutes but I miraclously came back to life.

My name Precious was chosen that minute I came back to life. The doctors were giving up on me but my parents were pleading that I should be checked again. Thank God I came back to life, else I would have been buried alive and helpless. I believe God had a plan for me.

I grew up like every other child, my parents noticed how inquisitive I was and this brought joy to them most especially My Dad.

I came back from school one afternoon, rushed in to show mum my awards from the inter-school debate I went for. I always make my parents proud. On getting to the living room I saw mum with Uncle Trevor in a very intimate position. They did not notice my presence I was surprised and could not say a word. All of a sudden I gathered strength from within and shouted "stop doing that!". They both stopped mum tried to put her clothes on. She started saying stop there Precious. I ran out of the house towards the road, mum ran after me. I did not check the road before crossing, a car knocked me down after which I lost consciousness.

I woke up in the hospital to my parents arguement. They were putting blames on each other for my accident. They stopped when they realized I was awake. Mum was apologising. Sorry Precious how do you feel now, she looked scared at thesame time. Dad just stood at the end of the bed with his eyes fixed on my legs.  The Nurse came to check on me and gave me some medicines. I refused to look at mum in the eyes even though she looked very sad. I asked dad why he was staring at my legs. Although I noticed that I could not feel my legs or toes but I thought it was because of the accident.

I spent 6months at the Orthopedic hospital, I lost the function of my limbs in the accident. It was a very difficult time. I was only 10years. By age 11 I was confided to the wheelchairbecause of lack of funds.  During my time at the hospital, I wrote poems and songs. I was lonely but dad always visit 3times daily. At first I wondered why mum would not visit. Although I told her not to visit without dad.
I Hate Mum!!!

On the day of my discharge from the hospital, mum did not come still, I asked dad what happened but he kept giving excuses. Then I told him what happened the day I had the accident. I told him I saw mum and Uncle Trevor and I was upset when I ran into the road. Unfortunately dad was driving the car that hit me. Dad could not believe me until we got home and saw the letter mum left behind.

The letter..
Hi Theo,
I can no longer cope with your condition as an infertile man. I know we have been together for 15years now. Although our marriage has been a success so far. We have a child who is now bound to a wheelchair. I cannot cope cheating on you which I have been doing for a year now. I am 6months pregnant with Trevor's(my work colleague) baby and we are moving out of the country to Canada. I wish you good luck with Precious please tell her I left because I could not cope.
Gloria

What a cruel woman mum was. Dad did not want me to read the letter but I begged him to let me read it. Although I was 11years but I understood every word of the letter mum left. I and Dad cried that day. Dad promised never to leave me.

I managed to write my secondary school entrance exams, also I entered for a scholarship exams hoping to pass.

Dad was very caring. He did all he could to get a maid to help me at home before and after school. Some of the maids were just there for the money they cared less about me. Dad came home one day to see chigozie(maid) fast asleep whilst I call for help from the room. That was the last day a maid was employed in our house. My grandma(dad's mum) had to come and stay with us so she could look after me whilst dad was at work.

Grandma became my mum, she was always there when I needed her. She taught me how to pray. She encouraged me, She noticed I loved writing poems, she encouraged me to write more and was ready to read them. One afternoon dad came home looking sad I knew sonething had gone wrong. He told us he was given a sack letter when he got to work that day. They did not give a reason.

For Two years dad was jobless, sometimes I was sent home from school because I owed school fees. When I was 13years I sat at home for a whole school year because dad did not have money for my fees. Grandma always take me to Church for prayer meetings it was there I gave my life to Christ during one of the church service. Dad started working as a driver for the church as well. I later went back to school having missed a whole year although I caught up with others. I had extra classes at home even grandma helps me at times with my studies because she used to be a Teacher before.

One day dad came home looking very happy you would have thought he won the Lottery. He started singing praises to God and we joined in. A company he sent application to 4years ago called him to see if he was still interested in the job, he went for the interview that morning that was why he left the house early because he had to walk there due to lack of transport money.
As he was still telling us about the job, his phone rang and it was from the company dad became so silent my heart was beating very fast. I just kept praying, grandma went on her knees and was praying to God.

After the phone conversation, dad bursted out in a hymn;
Great is thy Faithfullness oh Lord my Father, There is no shadow of turning with thee, thou changeth not thy compassion they fail not. Has thou has been thou forever will be.
I and grandma join in with the Chorus:
Great is thy faithfullness, great is thy faithfullness.Morning by morning, new mercies I see. All I have needed thy hand has provided, great is thy faithfullness Lord unto me.

Dad said the manager just told Him that the position he came for was already filled by another  candidate who came for the interview but after further consideration, the company has decided that Dad go and  take up the manageral position in their branch in Wales U.K. We were very happy but dad said he would only go if He is allowed to go with his family.

That night I dreamt of myself  in a new Country, it was very cold but I looked happy until I saw my mum coming towards me and begging me to forgive her and wait for her she looked different then I woke up. I told grandma about the dream and she said it was because of the excitement of the goodnews of dad's new job offer.

The week that followed felt so long but was filled with Pleasant surprises. It made me believe my watchword which is Psalm 30:1, 5 NIV"I will exalt you, Lord ,for you lifted me out of the depths and did not let my enemies gloat over me. For his anger lasts only a moment,but his favor lasts a lifetime;weeping may stay for the night,but rejoicing comes in the morning".
God showed up when we least expect. Dad was allowed to go with his family. Within a month our story changed it was the Lord's doing.
Two weeks to the scheduled date for our relocation to U.K. I received a letter from a School I had written a scholarship exam, it was another success story. Coincidentally, the School was in Wales as well in U.K. I just sat for the exam out of curiousity. Grandma was overjoyed. Dad is her only child grandpa had died when dad was in University, all her labour is now becoming fruitful.

I was doing a countdown to the day I could not wait, Dad got me a new wheelchair, at first I was a bit skeptical on how people will relate to me because I was on the wheechair but the school prospectus showed that there will be provision for students with any type of disability. I can either stay in the school hostel or choose what suits me most. It's felt unreal, I kept pinching myself maybe I will wake up from the dream but it was REAL.

Our New Home...
I loved everything I saw but it was very cold, it was winter, the temperature was -6°C. It was not easy to cope with but we did cope. Grandma became my main Carer especially when dad had to work away from Home. After high School and college, I got admission to University to study Public Health and Medical Research.  I made sure I chose a University Close to home because I know I will miss dad and grandma.

Alongside my studies I continued my  poems and artworks. One day my friends Tanya and Selma came to my house to visit. After introducing them to grandma I took them to my room. It was opposite grandma's room in the Bungalow we lived in. Tanya was the first one to notice the painting frames hanging on the wall with poems describing the painting.She said she loved it and asked if I could get her some because her dad is into professional artwork. I told them it was my self taught skill but they didn't believe me..

You and Life

In life different types of people comes through our path.
We see some as mistake.
We see some as blessing.
And some we never want to remember them.

The basis is that God will always bring people across our path to learn from them or they learn from us.

Some will always be bad even when you are good to them.
Some will always be good regardless of how you pay them back.
That is life.

My point what do people learn from YOU?
WHAT MESSAGE DO YOU PASS ACROSS?
WHO ARE YOU?
WILL PEOPLE THANK GOD THAT THEY KNOW YOU OR CURSE THE DAY THEY MET YOU?
WHO ARE YOU?

Scriptural Truth

Psalm 34:8-10 NIV

Taste and see that the Lord  is good;
blessed is the one who takes refuge in him. Fear the Lord , you his holy people,
for those who fear him lack nothing. The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the Lord  lack no good thing.
Psalm 123:1-4 NIV

I lift up my eyes to you,
to you who sit enthroned in heaven. As the eyes of slaves look to the hand of their master,
as the eyes of a female slave look to the hand of her mistress,
so our eyes look to the Lord  our God,
till he shows us his mercy. Have mercy on us, Lord , have mercy on us,
for we have endured no end of contempt. We have endured no end
of ridicule from the arrogant,
of contempt from the proud.

For as many that people in power are using their position to make life unbeareable for you the scriptures above are for you.

If God says it, He mean it and He will Do It.

He has done it before, He will do it again.

Who You are..

Many are times that we get carried away by our surroundings hence we forget who we are. Just a quick ine friends never forget who you are. Only you can allow things into your existence...

Identity in Christ.

We all have AN IDENTITY IN CHRIST  BUT ITS USELESS IF YOU CAN NOT IDENTIFY IT.

THE ONE WHO ORCHESTRATE THE FUTURE AND STILL KNOWS WHERE YOU ARE...

Believe.

You don't have too see someone before you love them.  A blind Mother does not see her child but she still loves them.
MUST YOU SEE GOD BEFORE YOU BELIEVE IN HIM?

John 20:29 NIV

Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

My God is great.

When we continuously remind ourselves of HOW GREAT GOD IS, we will remember to always give HIM the BEST IN ALL WE DO...

PUT GOD FIRST AND THINGS WILL WORK FOR YOU.
PUT GOD LAST OR TAKE HIM OUT THEN BE REST ASSURED TO LIVE LIKE THE FORGOTTEN.

HE IS GOD BY HIMSELF AND HE WILL ALWAYS BE GOD..

Thank God for the sunset. 2

Rhoda said...  
Tracey the lady that said she was pregnant for Damien was lying. Damien had gone to see her and tell her the damages she had caused him and his marriage. When he got to her door, he had her discussing with a friend how she had hook up with an old friend and how he had fallen for her trick of being pregnant. She plans to claim she miscarried when it's exactly 4months. She would make sure Damien bought a new property for her. Damien had pressed record on his phone so she would not deny when he confronted her.  He found out the week he left our home. He confronted the girl and left her with warning never to come near him.

Damien had gone back to his mum telling her what she caused him. When he got there his mum was not in,she left a note to say she was next door. Damien's mum had gone to see my biological mum. Shirley(my biological mum) and Damien's mum had become friends in a strange was. Damien's mum is Asthmatic she had a crisis one night and fortunately shirley was outside her house when she heard her breathing heavily.

Thank God her room window faced the main road. Shirley took the spare keys under the electric meter where she had seen Damien's mum's housekeeper put it the other day. She rushed in and helped her get the inhaler and that was how they became friends. Damien's mum had told Shirley about me and who I was to her. Shirley had told her how I was conceived.

Shirley's story...
Shirley was an orphan living in the mission house of a church. Very dedicated until the time the Pastor started abusing her sexually she was only fourteen. She got pregnant at fifteen and was excommunicated because of that. No one believed her, they called her evil,slut. She could not cope so she ran away. She started prostitution to make ends meet. She had me but gave me up for adoption to a rich couple. She agreed to stay in touch with them but not me. My adopted parents gave her all she asked for including the property she lived in. She never went back to church or cared to believe because of that. She said God forsake her just like its written in  Psalm 22:1-3 NIV

My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from my cries of anguish? My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, but I find no rest. Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;
you are the one Israel praises.
She said God never came to her rescue so why does she have to believe or worship Him(God) any more. Until she saved Damien's mum that day she never told anyone she had a child or think about making her way straight with God.

Damien's mum had succeeded in leading Shirley to Christ. She told shirley about me and told her who I was to her. It was one of  their meeting and Bible studies time they were having when Damien walked in.

He was introduced to shirley. All his anger froze when he heard the story. He still told his mum about Tracey and that we were divorced(which Damien's mum was not aware), he also told her I had the receiver that day and it was the reason our marriage became shaky and the divorce. Damien's mum and Shirley came back to his new place hoping to schedule a time to see me and apologise. Also to tell me Tracey was a golddigger.

As they got to Damien's  house,Rhoda was waiting outside his house to inform him about what happened to me.  So Rhoda brought them all to the hospital but insisted they waited outside till she called them in.

It all looked like a dream. I did not know what to say but I remembered while I was in Coma I saw my parents they looked unhappy with me and kept saying go back. Also my mum said forgive and read Isaiah 43:25 NIV"I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more".

As I was leaving I saw like a gatekeeper who told me to read .
Isaiah 43:19 NIV "see, I am doing a new thing!Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland".
And
Isaiah 62:3-4 NIV" You will be a crown of splendor in the Lord 's hand,a royal diadem in the hand of your God. No longer will they call you Deserted,or name your land Desolate. But you will be called Hephzibah, and your land Beulah;
for the Lord  will take delight in you,
and your land will be married".

That was when I came around from the coma. Laura told me that one of the tests carried out on me showed I was 6months pregnant.I was lucky the baby was unharmed by the effect of the drug overdose, also my body system was working well which amazed the doctors. I could not believe it. By this time Rhoda had gone to call Damien, his mum and shirley.

Damien came in with tears asking me to forgive him. Which I have even before he asked, he went on one knee and reproposed and I said yes. I told him I was pregnant and he was more than happy.  Damien's mum asked for my forgiveness and introduced Shirley and I to each other. It was a very emotional moment. My life was becoming meaningful again.

I was in the hospital for 2weeks after that day. After my discharge from the hospital I and Damian did another wedding, we renewed our vows. Shirley(my mum) comes to visit often. She became so dedicated to being a mum to me though we knew each other very late in life but she seems to understand me.
I put to bed a bouncing baby boy 3monthd later. We named him Emmanuel because I believe God was and is still with us.

Here I am sitting down in my home, I have my family back and I have my first love Christ. So as we look at the sunset I and Damien sing In Christ Alone to Emmanuel while he giggles.

Damien Sang along harmonizing;
In Christ Alone my hope is found
He is my light my strength my song
This cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What height of love, what depth of peace.
When fears are stilled, when striving cease.
My comforter, my all in all
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

So I thank God for the sunset, if Rhoda hadn't come round that day to see the sunset view from my living room window I might have died. Not I alone but Emmanuel.

Though I believed in Christ Alone but I forgot He was the  cornerstone and solid ground all believers must stand on and build their life. Now I know better that through the fiercest drought and storm Christ alone is our hope. Amen

Make use of what is available now.

Some things are withheld from you, so that you wouldn't misuse them.

Even though you long for some things so bad. God decides to withhold it in order for you to appreciate Him more and appreciate what He has made available for you now.

Instead of trashing what is made available for you now because you deserve better, why not make good use of what is available and the best will come unexpected.

Thank God for the Sunset. 1

The last thing I could remember was  me taking 10Tablets of Diazepam 2mg each. I knew  I was abusing the drug. It was given to me under prescription due to my lack of sleep which I have been suffering from for a month now.

Here I am in the Hospital, with my friend Laura looking sadly at me and asking me why I tried to take my life.

I was fed up of everything and how my life is turning. All that has made me happy is gradually turning the other way round.

I  Lexy, was the envy of friends and colleagues. I was married to the best man any lady can dream of. Damien was a good man. We had started our relationship from our University days. He was the class reperesentative and I was his assistant. A very understanding man, a Christian with values and fear of God. I was an adopted child but did not know until my 3rd year of marriage.

I was raised by a lovely couple who adopted me after all chances of them having their biological child failed. I was pampered, well thaught and never lacked anything. My mum(adopted) was a teacher while my dad(adopted) was an Ambassador. With their status I was able to visit many countries of the world. I could speak 3languages(English, Spanish and French). I was never treated like an adopted child, I was surrounded with/by love. Life was so good.

At 16years dad got me my first car, when I finished my Phd He gave me my second car. When it was time to marry and I told them about Damien and his background even though his family were not so rich they still accepted him for who he was.
My happiness was their priority.

That day in August I was busy with work at the research firm which belongs to dad(I didn't know till his death). I had a distress call from his P.A.(personal assistant). I drove down informing Damien about it on phone and he met me there. Dad had slipped into coma from sleep. Mum called the specialist to come home. He was later transfered to the Hospital. He passed on two weeks later, he never came out of the coma. It was a bad time for me, I was 3months pregnant my third year of marriage. The shock cost me my pregnancy.
Mum could not cope she died barely 3weeks after that. I had to take a leave to come and see to her needs daily. She told to me during one of those days that I was adopted. She gave me my mum(biological)  pictures and name. She lived up North as at the last time she contacted them. I was upset, confused but I loved my parents. I forgave them, they gave me the best life. She died in my arm one morning. It was a dark and horrible August. Three lives lost within a month.

Damien and his family stood by me but I miss my parents. I vouch not to search for my real mother because I saw no need. All the McCarthy's properties was willed to me. I was their only child and next of kin. 

At 34years old I became a billionaire. Life was good. Plus I was a born again Christian thank God for Damien. He led me to Christ and we have been doing good until one day, one very day.

My In-Laws came to visit, it was July 21st Damien's birthday. They stayed over the weekend because it was his 40th birthday. Everything went well.
The day they were to leave I was helping Damien's Mum with her suitcase when the zip of the suitcase snapped and she could not use it. I took one of mine out while emptying it some pictures dropped on the floor. Damien's mum picked them and she looked at them,she asked me who it was. I told her she was my biological mum. Although they all knew now that I was adopted but I never told them I had the pictures or contact details of the person only Damien Knew. Then her countenance changed towards me.

Two months after that Damien was on the phone to His Mum and I noticed that since the last time My mother in-law visited when she calls and I pick up the phone she hang up on me. I told Damien but He said I shouldn't be paranoid that it's nothing. He had a call on the mobile and requested I hold the receiver of the home phone which is mother called him on.

The Reason...
My Mother In law
She said" Damien my son you are no more a child. We need our grand child. Since that horrible neighbour's daughter(your wife) lost the pregnancy she hasn't conceived who knows what she did with her youth. I told you that day you dropped me at the train station I knew her biological mother. She is my neighbour here, she used to live up North but moved south a year ago. She sleeps with anything, anyman. She is a shame to womanhood. How I wish I don't know her. Damien find a way to get someone pregnant then you can present the person as a surrogate mum or the child as adopted child to your wife" Then Damien came in, I had tear waiting to drop in my eyes but I hid it from Damien, handed the receiver to him and left the House.

The following months were horrible months, I and Damien gradually grew apart from each other. No more surprise gift(because I told him not to bother giving excuse there is no place to store them), no more dinner out. He was always working late but we go to church together with fake smiles similar and clothes. My marriage was shaky I prayed but never took steps. Those words his mum said always stopped me from acting when I should. When I got to work I lived a different life from my home, happy at work very sad at home.

On the Morning of my birthday which was also our 5th wedding anniversary I was 37years. A text came through on Damien's mobile and it said" hey lover boy, it's happened what your wife can't give you for five years I have achieved in 5months. I am 5weeks pregnant. We need to celebrate will be expecting you xxx Tracey".

Damien came in with breakfast in one hand and my birthday present in another. I could not be bothered, as soon as he entered I asked him who Tracey was. I asked about 10questions in a minute. I went to him and requested for answers. I became historical, I could not hold myself. How dare you Damien? How dare you?

With tears he told me Tracey was one of His childhood friend whom he ran into 6months ago. He spent those late nights with her. I could not believe my ears, here I was being a good wife. He was busy with another Lady. His mum encouraged him he said because she wanted to see her grandchild. He said he tried to tell me but couldn't face me,he wanted to stop but he couldn't.  Oh Damien! Everynight we prayed together even though our marriage was shaky, He deflowered me on our wedding night. We went to church, he conducted Bible studies.

I was angry I took the gift he bought for my birthday,smatched it, told him what I heard on the phone that day he asked me to hold the receiver, all what his mum said about me and asked him to leave me alone now,I cried, I blamed God, I blamed my biological mum, I blamed my adopted parents for dieing.

Late in the night Damien came back from work. I saw him but ignored him we slept on thesame bed but my husband felt like a stranger to me.He tried to talk to me, played my favourite song"In Christ alone my Hope is found" he did all he could. I saw my husband cry for the first time he broke down he couldn't help seeing me the way I was.Unfortunately I had harden my heart I told him I wanted a divorce. I had contacted my solicitor during the day. He could not believe me. He stood there staring at me, he could not sleep in our room he moved to the guest room.

My solicitor came home to see me. She is a good friend of the family, she wanted to know why I was filling for divorce but I just said the marriage was not working. She couldn't believe it, she was my chief brides maid on our wedding day. She plead with me and urge me to pray. We prayed together and she left. At exactly three months the divorce paper came through. That was it, I had lost it, my love, my home, my salvation. Oh my!

Damien refused to share my property with me,he insisted that we be friends which I declined. Damien had moved out a week now but he  calls everyday to check on me. His sister Rhoda comes almost everyday to check on me. She never supported her brother or mum even though he was her only sibling. She stood by me. She had promised to come one afternoon after work. She loved the view outside my living room you could see the sunset. She takes different pictures of it anytime she comes round.

She was the one that called the emergency service when she realised I have used drug overdose. She read the suicide note. I had told her I wont be in but she could come and wait for me at home. She arrived 30minutes after I took the drug. I woke up in the hospital 2days later. Rhoda and Laura my friend had been taking turn to stay with me in the hospital.

After narrating everything to Laura she held me so tight and we wept. I had no sibling, no family apart from my husband, my biological mother(whom I don't know) and my Mum in-law turned my husband against me by encouraging him to do what he did. Rhoda came in she was glad I was ok. She said she had been to see Damien and that he was in the hospital but he is waiting outside.

Stay on track.

We are at the very End of Time.
It is End Time.

You either agree or disagree. We might have heard it countless time and still refuse to believe or better still put your belief on hold.
I want to say to you that is either you are on track or out of track.
You can not be on and off the track and still expect your focus or main goal to remain intact. It will either be shaken or forgotten.

Many are just making History while they are meant to be impacting lives and saving souls.
"I am a foundation Member, I have been a believer since 1907 and you just became a believer in 2007. 100years apart". It's not How far but How well brethren. Stop the story telling and History combination, it will be useless If you miss the Main Goal(Heaven).

Some are busy taking titles, medals upon medals, rank upon rank. What use is a Soldiers medal/position if he loses the battle, died in battle and lose the Main Goal(Heaven). The dead soldier will be regarded as a hero but did he/she achirve the goal? Stop the battle for recognision and position when and where its not important.

Some are carried away in the Chaos and are gradually losing the main goal. Because you are caught up in the Chaos does not necessarily mean you have to be lost or surrender to its manipulation. It should not stand as excuse for not making HEAVEN.

Some are buried in satisfying their wants and needs than rising to their purpose on Earth. Some are caught up in the shackles of the deceit, bodily satisfaction and so on that they are blind to the truth.

Some are scared to carry their Cross forgetting that at the end you will be alone and the cross you carry or refuse to carry will either stand with or against you.

Some are less bothered about the groups above they forget their mission is to reach out pray for, pray along, live a life that can change lives for and to the glory of God. The dieing soul is not in their Agenda its Me Myself and I.

Some are very much on track. Though challenges rise but they ask for grace to carry on and they do. Your rewards awaits you do not give up.

1 Thessalonians 4:14-18 KJV

For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him. For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive and remain unto the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep. For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God: and the dead in Christ shall rise first: Then we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air: and so shall we ever be with the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words.
Amen.

Leave Revenge to God.

Revenge some say is great.
But I do not see Revenge to be great.
When you leave your hurts to God.
He will lift you up in a golden way.

Remember God is a God of Vengeance.
Leave Revenge to God.

I believe this Message is for someone.

Jesus is our Firm Foundation.

Jesus You are My Firm Foundation
I know I can stand secured
Jesus You are My Firm Foundation
I put My Hope in Your Holy Word2x

I have a Living Hope2*
I have a future2*
God has a plan for me2*
Of this I'm sure2*

Some times we sings songs without acting on the powerful Lyrics.
Imagine someone who just sang the song above then gives up going for a scheduled appointment because of Fear/Doubt.

Allowing what we hear/see to hinder what God lays in our heart/has done can be dangerous.

God has played His part by settling it, play your part by taking thr necessary steps.

As a Child of God who has a RELATIONSHIP with God, you should be able to IDENTIFY GOD'S VOICE.

It is important to Identify God's Voice so when those doubts and fear are kicking in, saying things different from what God can say.
You can now say with Boldness and Faith that works;
I HAVE A LIVING HOPE
I HAVE A FUTURE
GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME
OF THIS I'M SURE
BECAUSE JESUS IS MY FIRM FOUNDATION.

HALLELUYAH

Do not waste it!

Every stages of Life come as a training for an appointed time.

Just like no skills is wasted, so is that situation you face now.

The good is always hidden somewhere in the bad.

Whatever you find yourself doing.

Do it well and Let God be glorified.

You will be glad you did so.

Let God handle Tomorrow.

Everyday birth new hope.

For each day we see, we make plans for Tomorrow.

Because we hope to see Tomorrow.

It is only God that makes those plans to materialise.

He also makes the Hope worth it.

The Mistake some human make is thinking that they have the right to see tomorrow Forgeting that God decides who sees Tomorrow and who does not.

Your plans for Tomorrow should be in God.

Live a life in God and cast all hopes for now and Tomorrow unto God.

God is the only one that knows Tomorrow.

Live your today in God.
Let God handle it and decide what  Happens Tomorrow.

Make it your Ultimate Goal Now.

The fact that you know that there might be a second chance does not mean you should screw up the present chance you have now.

Even though some people do get second chance given to them by God to make their way straight you might not be lucky enough to get it.

You are the begining of the Change your life is craving work on it.

Revelation 3:3-6 KJV

Remember therefore how thou hast received and heard, and hold fast, and repent. If therefore thou shalt not watch, I will come on thee as a thief, and thou shalt not know what hour I will come upon thee.  Thou hast a few names even in Sardis which have not defiled their garments; and they shall walk with me in white: for they are worthy.  He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels.  He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.

Tomorrow Might be too Late.
Make today Your Turning Point.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to you and your Household.
It is by His grace that we are here again. I pray that His grace will be sufficient for all of us.
This Year we will knock a door and doors will open. We will  all sing and shout Halleluyah at the end of the year. Almighty God will show forth in all our endeavours in Jesus name amen.
We will not be at the wrong place at the wrong time. God's dwelling place will be our place forever. Amen
Have a glorious year.