Saved by Grace.

I knew  I was deep into something evil beyond my control.
The more I try to get out the more I fall deep, deeper than I was.

It all started when I met Joclyn my old school mate in U.K. When I came on scholarship for studies. I have worked so hard, studied day and night to gain that scholarship and I eventually did.

Mum was so happy, Dad was more than happy. He was ready to send me money to keep up every week if need be. Hmmmmm!!!

Oh I wish dad's dream saw the light of day. He travelled to Kinsasa on a Business trip and he never came back. He was murdered in cold blood. Just 2days to my travelling to U.K. I could not believe it my whole world was crumbling right before my eyes. O Lord!!!

I had to be strong for mum and my little brother it was difficult yes it was.

So I left for the U.K. First year was difficult but I scaled through. Second year was very difficult as mum couldn't carry on she suffered  a brief stroke and all dad's investment went like a wind all blew away on mum's illness.

Mum became well but it meant I had to work and send money home for her to survive. How possible is that I was entitled to only 20hours work a week.  Mum will never take no for an answer. She said I had opportunities and I should make good use of it. She compared me to every other person abroad saying A sent a new car home last week while B just built  a house. I try to explain to her that its not as easy as she thinks but it always fell on deaf ears. Oh My!!!

Joclyn came into my life, we were not close friends back home. She was a clergy's daughter and all she did back in school days was preach and preach. She always bore the entire school with John3:16"For God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotten son that whosoever believeth in Him will not perish but have everlasting lie". I knew  it without checking the Bible because that was our greetings for her back then.

I was surprised the way I saw Joclyn she had transformed. She wore very tight revealing clothe and was chewing so hard. We hugged and talked about old times. She noticed how I stared at her amd brought me out of my misery by saying"this Joclyn aiint same one back in school days I have arrived gurl".

Joclyn's story..
Her dad had insitsed she joined the covent after school. She met a guy along the line who brought her to.U.K. Promised to sponsor her education on getting here she was used as a money making machine in a self owned motel for 3years she slept with anything, any man. She introduced me to her job after being a pest for 1year.

Mum never cared how I got the money down to her. Even though she was getting thousands every month it was like an obligation. All she says is "next month make sure its more my daughter".

I was selling my body for money!!!!
It was difficult but after some drinks and drugs I do things I would never do. Joclyn became so jealous of me she pushed me out. By then I had graduated from University. I was meant to go for my MSc in Media studies and Journalism. I tried getting a Job with my Credentials but I could not lay my hand on one. I felt so useless and defeated.

I was asleep when I got a call from Joclyn it was 2am in the morning a winter morning. She was weeping I could hardly understand what she was saying. From what I gathered she was in Queens Hospital intensive care unit. I told her I will come first thing in the Morning. I could not sleep afterwards, I had different thoughts I prayed for the first time in 6years that God should keep Joclyn.

When I got to the hospital I could not recognise Joclyn. She was a shadow of her usual self. She had been sick for 9months. She had H.I.V. She never went for treatment and it has now become AIDS. She could hardly speak. We both cried, my world stood still.  I am losing a friend, just like I lost my dad. I thought it was my fault, I must have a bad Omen.

I stood by Joclyn, visited her everyday. I eventually stopped prostitution. Joclyn's case made me stop. One faithful day while I visited Joclyn, she introduced me to her Main carer Elizabeth. She was so nice she kept saying my name was lovely hmm "BLESSED A LOVELY NAME?".

Elizabeth was a minister in her Church. She had grown so fond of Joclyn and had asked that Joclyn rededicate her life to Christ. Joclyn had become born again. I thought it was good but not for me. Joclyn is a clergy's child so is just going back to her foundation. I am a Christian by name, we only went to church on occassions when I was with my parents so Christianity was an official status for my family.

Elizabeth insisted I should try Christ even though I gave her all excuse of not being able to try Christ. She taught me a song and she requested I should sing the song and pray the way I can.

I could not get the song out of my head till I went to bed that night. I kept singing "open the eyes of my heart Lord I want to see you".

My turning point...

I dreamt that I was in shackles in a very dark room and I was still singing Open the Eyes of my heart Lord I want to see you. I was weak very weak I was losing my voice. Then I sang for the last time using all my strength. Suddenly, there was an earthquake out of it came a light reaching up to the skies. I could not look at it because the Light was shining, I was trembling. The voice said "Blessed why are you calling?"It was sounding like thunder and echoed all over. In my trembling voice I said I want to see you. The voice " you are in darkness child and I am the Light of the world. I and darkness have no agreement but you have prompted me with your cry. To see me you HAVE TO COME OUT OF DARKNESS". Then I woke up I was soaked in sweat my heart was pumping really hard and fast.

I had doubts in my mind, I was trying to force myself not to believe. I said it must be hallucination. Its not true as I was contemplating on my revelation, the door to my room opened wide, and Behold a shining light and an Angel standing at the door. I could hear angels Singing far away.

The Angel said" why are you doubting Blessed, the Lord had sent me to tell you to COME OUT OF DARKNESS INTO EVERLASTING LIGHT. You have called and He is waiting for you, why do you want doubts to rob you off your salvation. You are behaving Like Thomas(Didymus) one of the Disciples who did not believe Christ had risen as recorded in The word of God in John 20:24-29 KJV

"But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. The other disciples therefore said unto him, We have seen the Lord. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe. And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them: then came Jesus, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you.  Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.  And Thomas answered and said unto him, My Lord and my God. Jesus saith unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed."

Blessed the Lord want you on His side and He needs you now. Tomorrow might be too late present yourself to him". Before He left He said I should read Romans 12:1-2.

Romans 12:1-2 KJV

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service. And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

That was my Turning point.

I became born again Christian. God gave Joclyn the grace to live 2years more. We could not locate Joclyn's family. Her parents had died, we had a charity organisation for women Redeemed from sex trade.

Our Charity project name was "DELIVERED". We trained women, preached the gospel, go to motel and anywhere we could get to preach to sex workers and anyone. God took control of our lives. Thanks to Nurse Elizabeth who Later became my Mother In Law and My Mother in the Lord. One faithful Sunday after service I and Joclyn had gone to do home visit. We parted making plans for the next day.

I was worried when Joclyn did not make it to the next day appointment. She was not picking her mobile. I sensed something had gone wrong. Oh Joclyn, she had passed on in her sleep overnight. I could not hold myself I called my husband Kevin who came as soon as possible.

Joclyn was buried the following week which would have marked our second anniversary of giving our lives to Christ. Her memory lives on.

I still run the Charity with help from volunteer. My Mum and brother also gave their lives to Christ. I am Living testimony of being SAVED BY GRACE.

Thank God for Jesus..